goodbye '08, i hate you

2009-03-30T13:03:00.000-07:00

it's been a month and everything is different.
everything

2009-02-18T14:56:00.000-08:00

i have a knife to cut things and stab people with
my car broke down again

there is only one person in my life that always cares
not just sometimes

kanye everyone knows you can't sing so
give up

2009-02-09T13:18:00.000-08:00

today i waited for a package that isn't mine
i woke up early so ups man could give me a package that isn't mine
so i could sign for a package that isn't mine
put it in a closet that isn't mine
and sleep on a couch that isn't mine
go on a computer that isn't mine
look outside a window that isn't mine
walk out a front door that isn't mine
and ride a chrome bianchi pista
that's mine

first week of school was alright
minus rain
minus dirty looks
minus hipsters
minus people i never wanted to see again

i am going to illustrate a charles bukowski poem for my stoyboard illus class

2009-02-02T23:42:00.000-08:00

"
you know sometimes, to get perspective,
i like to think about a spaceman
on a star incredibly far away
and our problems don't matter to him
because we're just a distant point of light
but he feels sorry for me because
he has an incredibly powerful microscope
and he can see my face

i'm okay

no i'm not

"

michael scott

2009-01-31T18:57:00.001-08:00

what can i say, i knew it

going grocery shopping for my costa mesa house! i will be living there since i have school at 9am tues through fri. goodbye fun semester of nothing!

i am buying a black moor goldfish for my uncle's house
it will have a nice 25 gallon, plexiglass, hexagon shaped tank all to itself
everyone will see him and love him
and he will survive

2009-01-27T00:13:00.000-08:00

i want this. i really want my own animal.
i always loose mine or they get eaten by coyotes or run away or i move or i get kicked out.

i will buy a long-haired cat and make it a lion.

i'm not a crazy cat person i just want a cool animal and most places don't like dogs.

2009-01-25T22:17:00.000-08:00

quit the cleanse bc i need caffeine, food that i can taste, and even dead mosquitoes looked appetizing.

other than that everything is the exact same.
i really wish school would start so i could have something important to focus on.
something other than all the people i hate.

day 2

2009-01-23T11:43:00.000-08:00

of my lemon detox cleanse. the first day was hard because of the massive caffeine headaches and stomach pains. today i woke up happy and not hungry. the most disgusting part is the 1 quart salt water flush every morning.

lemon
maple syrup
cayenne pepper
sick

2009-01-20T23:41:00.000-08:00

maybe i can move out with casey
i'd like that very much

2009-01-19T23:53:00.000-08:00

maybe i dropped off the face of the earth and i want it to stay that way.
i am slowly finding my way through nerdness.
hello steven le, hello akash kataria.
make me a nerd.
dirty hipster nerd.

january 20th, 2009 presidential inauguration or $175 million settlement!
http://www.cosmeticssettlement.com/ !!!

2009-01-15T01:00:00.000-08:00

i play solitaire because i have free time and i play solitaire because i thuroughly enjoy solitaire.
i haven't seen most of my friends in a month and i'm getting used to it.
i go back to school end of january.
i take care of elijah.
i am slowly dying inside, not really.
february sixth february sixth too bad i won't tell you guysss.
i think things are becoming increasingly hilarious.
esp. people contradicting themselves.
i hate liars, i hate flakes.
i hate when i try to explain myself and people don't get it.
i am busy.
i really am in debt but i'm working on it.
i thought most of these people would inspire me forever.
somehow i have managed to find true friendship.
i have a lot of thoughts.
i still make lists.
i enjoy working with the mexican cooks at chaya.
i really can't tolerate most people in my life, everyone seems so stupid and oblivious.
i am still sarcastic just more realistic.
i hate that i am growing up.
i have seen so many movies in the past six months, thank you bunny.
most people don't care, i care too much.
i care about what people do to themselves and others.
i don't want to save anyone,
anymore.

2009-01-09T23:17:00.001-08:00

the tigers have found me
and i do not care

2009-01-06T00:06:00.000-08:00

i've been taught to separate myself from the people who aren't good for me
and it's the only thing i know how to do
some people don't learn, they can't change
they'll be stuck in the same endless circle of other people
doing nothing incredibly important with their lives,
for the rest of their lives
atleast until they move on to another circle
it's disgusting
i want everything back
everything i did for you, with you, because of you
i don't expect people to give the things they can't,
but friends give in other ways
and it seemed those ways were never genuine
never because you wanted to and always done with hesitation or obligation
no one should be obligated to be friends with anyone
some people don't know how to be friends
and they go on using other people
you don't need me
you have other people to rely on
and i can see that now, i can see why
i'm not afraid of having nothing
even if it means doing everything myself
i've always done things myself
that the difference between me and you

you just float, doing whatever it takes
i climb and i get mine

2009-01-01T13:31:00.000-08:00

i had no plans for new years and i didn't want to make any so i watched slumdog millionaire
and at 12 alex and i whispered happy new year.

for the first day of the new year i'm going to feed the ducks again.

good bye '08, i hate you.

2008-12-30T21:37:00.001-08:00

i guess i'm just waiting to explode with new something.
just explode with something.

man i really want my home depot job. just make gnarly displays all day long and not have to work with anyone else.

2008-12-26T22:33:00.000-08:00

gran turino was a shit movie i don't care whether clint eastwood produced and directed it or not he is probly paying every critic to say it was dope

2008-12-16T13:01:00.000-08:00

done.

2008-12-11T17:41:00.000-08:00

tomorrow comes today

2008-11-06T22:17:00.000-08:00

isolating other people because you're selfish and insecure.
i know so many self absorbed people and so few generous individuals.
it is so tiring to give yourself to something that has nothing to give in return.
i've lost connection with so many people.

time to pull some weeds.

i draw so hard into the paper my strokes turn into holes in the page.

2008-11-06T01:30:00.000-08:00

the update:

still afraid of the dark.
i saw crystal castles and yelle.
i've become increasingly better at painting colored tips on nails.
my car is finally registered.
i still don't have a new job.
i still hate chaya.
i want to move out with alex but that is impossible.
i forgot how much i enjoy flavored sparkling water.
the sparkling cider from when i was 12 is still good.
HARD was incredible.
i did not carve a pumpkin this year.
i did not decorate.
i love my brother elijah.
costa mesa is dirty.
i have not painted but i want to

2008-10-24T12:04:00.000-07:00

my pedals came i am very excited about that
friends coming back home this weekend include: akash kataria, steven le, daeniel francisco, melanie sie and alex rajabi. which means giant sleepover, hopefully.
josh isn't coming home for thanksgiving.

when someone expects you to be a certain way it's easier to be that way then prove you're not
and it's usually not worth proving

we had goldfish and they circled around and around
in the bowl on the table near the heavy drapes
covering the picture window and
my mother, always smiling, wanting us all
to be happy, told me, "be happy Henry!"
and she was right: it's better to be happy if you can
but my father continued to beat her and me several times a week while
raging inside his 6-foot-two frame because he couldn't
understand what was attacking him from within.

my mother, poor fish,
wanting to be happy, beaten two or three times a
week, telling me to be happy: "Henry, smile!
why don't you ever smile?"

and then she would smile, to show me how, and it was the
saddest smile I ever saw

one day the goldfish died, all five of them,
they floated on the water, on their sides, their
eyes still open,and when my father got home he threw them to the cat
there on the kitchen floor and we watched as my mother
smiled

bukowski

2008-10-22T12:26:00.000-07:00

i had a dream that what the complete reverse of something incredibly important that happened last year like complete reverse of what happened. nov 18th, not my ideal day to dream a nightmare about.

whenever i use gorilla glue to mend something, i think about the time you glued and sewed my shoes together and how happy that made me.
but it also makes me think about how you faded away, so gone no one could get through to you, became something so unlike yourself, and how eventually it changed all of us into something we thought we could never be.
if i could be here a year ago i would
but i'm afraid i'd do everything the same

i'll never be afraid of being trapped
something always comes, someone always fades, and the good things always remain despite everything around you.

2008-10-19T19:07:00.001-07:00

when you left
you took almost
everything.
i kneel in the nights
before tigers
that will not let me be.

what you were
will not happen again.
the tigers have found me
and i do not care.

bukowski

i have ignored my responsibilities, obligations to friends, birthday presents, and etc. until very recently. sometimes it feels better to be disconnected from kids in orange county. especially the ones who can hardly empathize or even begin to compare their lives with yours. even friends can find it hard to relate when someone else's world is turned upside down. if you don't live in that world then how could it possibly affect you or strike any interest. you can listen and voice a simple " i'm sorry " but you know and they know- it is as significant as the water you waste showering for 30 minutes, the cans you don't recycle and the bubble wrap you pop.

2008-10-14T22:05:00.000-07:00

i do not like harbor justice center.
today i stood in 5 lines and basically accomplished nothing.
and in the morning i will return and hopefully accomplish something.
i worked, used bunnath's laptop, munched on julie's co00okie crisps, and i came home.

i used to have insomnia.
now every night before i go to sleep, i write down everything that is troubling me so that i can atleast give my mind a break and continue in the morning.
i also rewrite the same list everyday, revised/edited.

2008-10-10T13:56:00.000-07:00

BIRTHDAY OF ME
my bike is completely chrome now
looks SO DOPE

2008-10-09T01:52:00.000-07:00

i wish i saw alex today
so far i have a new charger and aircraft remover waiting to be opened
not excited about my tickets i have to pay
i wanna go to hole mole and get me some potato tacos
if you have never been there i'm so sorry for your loss

if you're coming to my birthday dinner and you're a boy be sure to NOT WEAR PLAID
just bc we are dressing up does not mean every boy has to wear plaid. i hate looking at all my guy friends and seeing all different sizes shapes and colors prints lines of PLAID. so for one night as a birthday present to me i say no plaid.

i am so bored i am trying to earn enough seeds on facebook to send an obama plant

2008-10-06T04:03:00.000-07:00

click and enlarge to see inside my mind

2008-10-02T00:14:00.000-07:00

all i did was clean my room and i am dripping sweat.
homecoming is this weekend.
i'm drivin so no limo, no limo drama.
my birthday is next friday 10/10.
i have to sleep alone till this friday.
i'm watching gotham knight alone.
then i will read tales of ordinary madness.
then i'll fall asleep and try to imagine what chicago is like.
i want to know what fusion dance team is.

satoko

2008-10-01T01:15:00.000-07:00

satoko left chaya today. she gave everyone handmade
soy candles and individuals cards with goodbye notes.
then i gave her a giant cartoon picture of myself made
from magazines.

yoji took 3 of us to eat after work. the meal
consisted of edamame, gyouza, some french cream cheese
soup in a bread bowl, mench egg rolls, fried tofu,
albacore sashimi salad, hiyayakko, japanese version of
ban sao, some soup with pork and onion, mackerel, fried rice,
broiled chicken and something else i can't remember + mochi ice
cream and cheesecake for dessert. yoji said he was 70 percent
full. he was drinking 42 percent alcohol so i ended up riding home.

2008-09-30T04:03:00.000-07:00

what is fusion dance team. i need to know.

so much

2008-09-18T12:30:00.000-07:00

for goodbye yeah? it's been 3 people so far.

even though i don't say goodbye i think about you every day.
you told me you were leaving the 18th and now i'm just thinking about how much extra $$ you spent on transporting your equipment and all the horrible things that could happen to your plane.

I HATE EVANSTON/CHICAGO.

i

2008-09-10T12:05:00.000-07:00

have absolutely no privacy.

i really want spam musubi.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEVEN!

there's a new yogurtland harbor and baker (3 blocks from my house) for all you hipsterssss

summertime

2008-09-05T11:04:00.000-07:00

summertime and the livin' is easy
fish are jumpin' and the cotton is high

oh, your daddy's rich and your ma is good lookin'
so hush little baby, don't you cry

one of these mornings
you're goin' to rise up singing
then you'll spread your wings
and you'll take the sky

but till that morning
there's a nothin' can harm you
with daddy and mammy standin' by

luvvv billie holiday

september

2008-09-03T12:32:00.000-07:00

10 steven's

20 tracey's

26 alex's

but not everyone's a libra

10/10

i've been painting on tracey's wall and i started alex's-not much progress the walls are actually stark white and the thick black lines look better.

steven and josh leave this month :[[[

prince zuko

2008-08-23T16:26:00.000-07:00

there's a water heater at chaya that boils water so hot

that it kicks and thumps at the walls. the basket of udon

was overflowing so i grabbed it to dump it out in the sink.

as i was moving it it spilled all over my hands and now

they are mutilated. i feel like prince zuko from avatar except

on my hands :[[[[

i like

2008-08-14T19:04:00.000-07:00

my 100% lactose free milk with ice.

bumpy bear

2008-08-10T22:01:00.000-07:00

a long time ago i adopted a black, baby hamster. my friend gave me the idea and we ended up adopting sibling hamsters. so both of us had black. baby hamsters. he had named his little bear so i named mine bumpy bear. little bear started getting really fat and funny looking but bumpy bear stayed small :[[ my parents had told me no rodents in the house so i hid her under my desk for 3 months. we used to bring our hamsters to school, tuck them into our pockets and let them go in class to scare chaicharee. i even brought my hamster ball and bumpy would roll around in asb and choir. one day i came home and bumpy bear was d-e-a-d. that was probably 3 years ago maybe 2.

danny still calls me every couple months to remind me his hamster is still alive and mine is still dead. danny called me today. damnit.

shamu

2008-08-07T14:12:00.000-07:00

i want to pack everyone that

makes me mad into a car, tell

them we're going to seaworld,

drop them off on the side of the

road in the middle of no where,

then go to seaworld.

missin

2008-08-06T20:34:00.001-07:00

my sunglasses and my ipod
my eyes get sunburned easily

i need these things

and i miss meatwad! where is athf!!

massive

2008-08-05T12:25:00.000-07:00

headaches! bowls of cereal! anger!

monkeys to rest your wrist!

when i was little i made paper chains

to make special events come sooner.

christmas, my birthday, in this case

alex coming home! with 7 strips of

4 inch paper and 7 metallic green

staples i have a happy chain of paper

that looses a link a day. can't wait for

the 12th!

yea yea mama

2008-08-04T23:26:00.000-07:00

i know i gotta move my car i knowww but any
day i have to wake up and deal with my car i'd
rather roll over and go back to sleep till it's dark
outside and the mechanic has gone home for the
day so there's absolutely no way of fixing it which
is exactly why i lied to my mother when she called
me this morning wondering if i had woken up and
started my day yet maybe i don't ever want to
fix it and i'd rather sit and type run on sentences.

i miss when i could see my dad and i didn't have
to retrieve his information for my mother's forms
for social services. you'd think if social services
revoked your license for not paying child support
for 8 years it might be a wake up call to come out
from the rock you've been hiding under my entire
life. it's not about the money, the years of silence
or all the times he promised to see me and never
came. i don't even care what he's done i just wish
he was there when i needed him but i don't need
him anymore. i hope i never give up on anything
the way he gave up on me.

each time i tow my car i try to get to know the tow
truck driver as well as i can before i reach my
mechanic. today i had a normal driver who made
good conversation. he advised me on what to do
about my car and i inspired him to ride a bike.
the night ended with me biking home to costa
mesa angry. i'm tired of stupid comments and
inconsideration i just don't have the patience to
humor anyone anymore. i'm tired of opening my
two car garage and only seeing one car. i'm tired
of passing strange people at bus stops and having
cars slow or follow me up harbor blvd. i'm tired of
waiting for the left turn at fair drive to turn green.
i'm tired of the lonely ride home.

i miss alex.

famima!!

2008-08-02T16:57:00.000-07:00

you can find my car in the famima!! parking lot just in case you'd like to set it on fire and burn in to the ground. there's nothing valuable inside and the car itself is worthless. you could probably steal it if you had the right size bike lock key. trump's bike lock key would open the door. you'll still need to start it and the power steering is going out so it makes a nice whining noise, kinda like mehhhhhhhhhhhh every time it turns, backs out, parks or moving at all. it requires brute strength to move the car. might wanna steal it before monday because i can't tow it till then. AAA is on my ass and pretty soon i won't even be able to tow it for free. so much for roadside assistance or relying on anything at all.

alex is leaving for 10 days for berkeley business camp so i'll be moping around like a loner for a while. i'm not even scheduled to work very much. this could either be a perfect opportunity to tan, paint more, or just continue on with my usual routine laying around, couch surfing, napping and cycling. once again my car is in the famima!! parking lot [bushard and warner] it's open 24 hrs.

haven't

2008-07-25T00:36:00.000-07:00

had a car in a while. it's ironic how things add up, how things come just in time. i'm thankful i still have a way to see my friends everyday and get off my ass. i get things done.

and it's not just an accessory. obviously obviously obviously shit

there it

2008-07-22T12:43:00.000-07:00

goes again! so the other day i woke up to find my car had completely died. no battery, no life. so i called work and said i'd be 15 minutes late and i was gonna ride there. get there and mariko, the owner's daughter, comes out and tells me i can go home today because sumiko, the owner, is really upset. i asked if that means i'm fired and she said "we'll give you a call." whatever the fuck that means so yesterday i had a shift i didn't come in for because no one called me. satoko, my nice manager, calls and says not to worry about anything i'm not fired and everyone else understands my situation. so i guess i have work tomorrow lame. most people with money either can't relate to you or they simply don't care because they don't have to. so maybe it's better if i just never have money.

@%#$!

2008-07-19T23:49:00.000-07:00

it's incredible how i always manage to be absolutely broke, my car randomly chooses not to start, and my paychecks are always late. couldn't go to hardfest, sweet. i must of done something horrible in my past life cause i'm definitely feelin it in this one.

bianchi pista

2008-06-17T15:31:00.000-07:00

yesterday was the happiest day of my life. went with aris and alex to king's and got my bianchi pista. :]]]]]] rode 10 miles with aris alex daeniel and alex kim and it felt like family. only one thing is sore lawl.

ohohoh opened the mailbox and saw a letter addressed from the orange county fairgrounds to OCF neighbor !!!! !!!! that means there are possibly 20 free tickets to the fair inside, a complimentary offer given to neighboring peoples of the fairgrounds and all the traffic they now have to deal with. still not up for riding the rollercoasters they assemble in 2 days.

hb to cm to irv to cm to fv to cm

2008-06-06T02:02:00.000-07:00

woke up to a big comfy bed and a sleepy nat bat. i think sleeping in natalie's bed is my all time favorite. i wake up happy everytime. it always reminds me of the summer before senior year nat and i took p.e. together. i lived with her for a week or so while my ma was away. well i was at nat's because i finally received a cooking lesson with medi ryan(nat's mom)! it all started with the story of how medi learned and perfected the moroccan chicken recipe from super suppers haha. the three of us prepared and served moroccan fish and chicken, potatoes, some other chicken with lemon and olives, couscous, salad obv, forgetting the ressttt, just did this too and i can't remember-it was for a surprise party for a family friend. 13 people. i love my israeli family. afterward nat and i went to this space on main street in between the street and a parking garage with a massive dome and high ceilings. we sang for a few hours-choir songs, fun songs, any songs we could remember. the acoustics were incredible. some dumbass came stumbling over to us and sat on my lego chewbacca keychain, that faggot broke one of the legs off. i sat there staring at it. he was mumbling something to us, drunk, but all i could say was-you broke my keychain you can leave now. when he finally left he threw 3 dollars on the ground for me. it definitely won't replace anything.

contemplating not going to summer school, spending more time with josh, painting more, and working more so i can save. i really hate how school gets me down. i know a lot of my friends will be moving away and transferring to colleges farther away. that used to get me down too. once everyone moves away it will be easier to plan my one year stay in japan :] . hopehopehope.

this is the last time i will use lame since i recently vowed to cut it out of my vocabulary. this really fucking LAME customer came in today. she was huge, white and had a shrilly voice. blahblah she kept talking, her lame co-workers kept talking and there were 2o business convention people in line. they decided it would be in their best interest to stand off to the side at the front of the line to the register and talk, interrupting every single customer. ever single customer! and then finally once i had juggled conversations back n forth the huge white lady asks about closing hours. i told her 1 am weeknights 2am weekends and then she goes so far as to blurt out "wow i guess asians stay up really late!" in her shrilly voice that boomed over the heard of business convention attendees. i just sat there at the register staring at her for a few seconds. we were the only two white people in chaya. she decides THAT was the most opportune time to inquire some kind of response. i sware i hate white people. the best thing i could come up with was "well asian people aren't the only people who come here, just college kids in general." she then looked around at the room full of asian faces and brushed the entire thing off. her suit looked like it was about to pop off her body.

went into levi's bought jeans and stayed to close. i think i'll like it there.
marcia leaves for beijing tomorrow. i pray for a safe flight and a safe trip. should be dope living alone for 2 weeks. don't know how i'll sleep or anything.

impounded

2008-06-01T01:22:00.001-07:00

today i woke up to find my car had been towed away, impounded in some unknown location. today of all days___today i was scheduled for a second interview with ray at levi's. hey but this would happen to me, i've learned to deal. natalie's parents were nice enough to help me out with the $260 fee, which i am incredibly grateful for. natalie's dad was yelling at the tow truck man because he wouldn't let a non-relative pay with a credit card, something they failed to mention over the phone. the tow truck man was so lame. i couldn't look at him, he was obese and it happened to be very very hot. i thought it was especially lame he couldn't start my car. for a second i imagined myself just throwing my life out the window. i made it to the interview 30 minutes late but all was well. ray is am extremely chill person/manager and i feel really good about working for levi's and finishing his sentences. it will be nice to work with tina since she's like a sister to me and everyone there seems diverse, i like it. visited alex tran today :]. saw daeniel and tracey whats new gave akash his adapter i ordered. wished a happy birthday to alex and watched planet earth, one of my all time favorite nature shows and the first show we watched on our new tv at my real house. idk if i ever want to go back to my real house ever ever ever again. it's nicer to spend time with other people's families. i don't feel obligated to be a part of anything but sometimes i get thrown in there with everyone. they usually treat you a lot nicer, being a guest. you don't have to see anyone's bad side and even if you do you're not living with them. ultimately family was always important to me but i felt like the only person in my family it was important to. ima have beautiful kids to make up for that later.

it's really easy to just cut certain people out of your life. then eventually they'll move away and you'll never have to see them again. i look forward to it.

getting my bike soon yipyip

dp

2008-05-29T02:19:00.000-07:00

i didn't think it would come to this but im addicted to dr pepper again, hello old friend. at one point i quit soda by slowly moving to sprite and then taking it out of my diet altogether. "i never half step cause im not a half stepper drink a lotta soda so they call me dr pepper" [buggin out] i've discovered the best places for dr pepper if you dont understand the abbreviations that means you have yet to discover the best places

1. chptl
2. 7 11
3. j&js
4. tb

_o_ot_ is now appa

you

2008-05-27T00:23:00.000-07:00

as hard as i try im still angry with you.

nfd

2008-05-20T00:57:00.000-07:00

friday became saturday which became sunday and now its monday/tuesday

i finally finished my monster research paper and turned it in tonight. mcmurray gave us cupcakes and then we went home. that was the last english class i will take in college. id like to say i feel accomplished but i kind of don't. i think im doing horrible in school. i feel like every single class is just waiting for me to fail. tomorrow is the first half of my japanese final and i think my teacher didn't drop me from the class just so she could fail me. she's racist and she loves chinese people but shes japanese. if i can pull off a 5 minute presentation, a powerpoint and an essay i'll get an A in contemporary art theory. there's also the first half of the six hour pose for life drawing tomorrow. my body is going to explode. this week is far from over.

im making a tribute to the following people who made my research paper possible:
.jon the tutor paid by friendship who always seems to come through for me with last minute revision or guidance on my essays
.steven do who lent me his room to keep myself awake and focused
.josh kim speaking to me through my essay
.all my jappy friends at chaya telling me ganbatte

no one seems to be amused by my_if i was a wma file i'd convert to mp3 so you could play me in your itunes library

nfd
sunday marked six months since natasha felicite dannov passed away. i wasn't able to attend her memorial but not a minute went by i didn't think about her. i still wear your shirt to sleep tash and i still think of you when i sing joan jett and the blackhearts-do you wanna touch. i remember driving your car home for you in the morning after those long nights. i remember painting you something and never giving it to you. i remember telling you how gorgeous you were. i think about you everyday and i remember your story. ive never done what other people do and im not about to let down my friends, save a natasha. everyday in my mind and in my heart, nfd.

during work

2008-05-17T04:04:00.000-07:00

i scooped up a bug in a cup of ice that spilled on the ground then i kept it all day and left it at stevens house on purpose
i saw everyone even though my plan was to not go out and be a good kid at home
tragus piercing soon

now its like 4:2_ am
the speed limit is 10 mph and i counted 50 speed bumps when looking for parking when people pull in their music is always always loud it gives me time to listen to the song i hear the lyrics look it up online and listen again ive done this a lot lately instead of writing my 14 pg research essay

i realized staring into the computer monitor is the worst thing you can possibly do because you are staring directly into a lightbulb a giant square lightbulb

this semester

2008-05-15T15:25:00.000-07:00

was the worst thing that happened to me
from the massive research papers to the in-class discrimination against white people

i woke up 4 times last night dying of thirst and didnt make it to class again

today lunch and 4am meals are more essential than breakfast
yes most problems can be solved with money they really can
dan cummins says
i don’t like the phrase money cant buy happiness that ridiculous . like if you hit the lottery i figure you can atleast afford to make the people you don’t like unhappy, that’s gotta feel great. i’d have a fantastic time like show up at a hated relatives birthday party and give them a 10 dollar gift certificate, and then a 100,000 dollar cake. i didn’t know if you wanted cash so i thought, who doesn’t like chocolate? enjoy, you'll never taste anything this rich again. yeah, i hate you.